Dear spiritual training diary,
yesterday I worked at one of my jobs (I got a bunch), one of my favourite ones, at youth center Bagishuset in Bagarmossen. And, doublewin, they had martial arts day! So I got to work AND train bjj. Score!
This guy Martin came and held bjj-training with the boys (yes 100% boys attended, girsl looking curios but not daring). It was fun doing bjj with the kidz, doing physical stuff together ofcourse breaks barriers and make us more human. Increasing empathy in eachother. Sharing sweat. So basic.
Anyway, gotto go soon. Just also wanted to mention that it was helpful fot my bjj technique to train the same thing with another teacher, who empathizes different things. Learned a superbasic takedown, actually two. That I can jump up to guard (LIKE!) and other stuff.
Got thrown landed on my head cracking my neck, so slept with some difficulty and a lot of pain.
Now googling submissions. Found this page
Decided to learn the Omoplata:
Love, now going to dance!
Dear spiritual training diary,
I think I'm a bit stressed. Not so bad. I feel happy and so. But I have difficulties sleeping. Wake up all the time, restless legs, sweating, and in the morning everything hurts. My neck. My hands. And especially my jaws and teeth.
Could it be that I've been grinding my teeth?
Yesterday I went to danceclass with Fred Gies. He does somatic classes with an interrest around BMC (body mind centering). He lead us through an exploration of our bones. Our skeleton. Like, first I was feeling my bones on my body (where I can feel them), also feeling my bones touching me, letting the exploration move me spacially. It became a dance. it was nice. I was loosing up myself, thoughts and muscles around the dancing skeleton.
After class my poor jaw-muscles was relaxed and loose.
I'm remembering dancing like this is my meditation. Improvising in a in a dancestudio. Around my skeleton, or my thoughts of love, or a good music or what's relevant for me right then. I need this.
Dear Spiritual training diary,
yesterday was friday after first week of rehearsals with ÖFA: MONSTER. Since I'm aware a collective creative process is both super-fun and super-demanding for me, I made sure I had a lot of time on my own. Time to think in quiteness. Found time for both spiritual research, meditation and fun bjj-traiing. Spent afternoons in cafés reading All about love, thinking about love as an active force that can make us feel connection to the world around us. I want dance to be an active force that creates a strong bond to the community and the world we live in.
It has been a great week. Went swimming twice. My hair is growing long. I'm for some mysterios reason loosing weight. But feeling strong. Also strong urge for drinking beer.
In bjj I have to my own suprise found myself being on top. Usually I end up on my back, defending, wiggling away with fast floor moves and lots of leg work, 90 kilos men over me trying to do a kimura on me. And in the good moments topping from bottom, f.e. taking it easy while the person on top sweats and struggles to get away from my legs, failing to pass, or scoring a triangle from under (my favourite!). But in the three trainings this week I found cuarage to be offensive, staying on top and finding all kinds of new situations. Succeeded with a bunch of arm bars :D
Friday night training as usual ended with an hour of sparring. Was great. Lost my air a few times cuse of heavy guy flopping down on my chest. But otherwise fun! No problem with stamina, just rolled and rolled and rolled.
Learnt this week:
armbar from guard, or armbar from top
triangle from bottom, better version
kimura från side, kimura från guard
using legs and spiderguard a lot
who Hildegard of Bingen was, and her learnings about the harmony between body soul and spirit
the power of leaning back (keep learning, keep leaning)
about whiches, skogsrået, Lilith, Hydran, The Incredible She Monster, The 50 feat Woman and other women-monsters created from the patriarcic fear of women, their sexuality, wisdom and freedom.